Zinzi Clemmons’ grief-filled What We Lose brings new depth to an old topic

Zinzi Clemmons uses a poetic style, rich imagery, and fervent introspection to delve deep into the heart of racial divides, economic guilt, and the severe desperation of loss in her debut novel, What We Lose. The story not only thematically and structurally changes the usual story of loss, but also highlights a hardened subject matter with new and original attention. Thandi, a young woman growing up on the East Coast, struggles to find balance in her life after the slow and heartbreaking death of her South African mother. In her journey to accept that which is beyond loss, Thandi searches for who she has become and what is left when nothing else seems to remain.
The novel spends a great deal of time—possibly its most impressive main mission—in contextualizing Thandi’s complicated and unrelenting feelings. The diction and narrative style become a kind of metaphor to interpretations of depression, grief, and love. Chapters are often brief, a string of thoughts colliding, all leaning toward literary poetic styles that act like small stories of their own. This style succeeds in sifting and parsing through Thandi’s life—never linearly, but with a pattern to the madness. In one eloquent moment, Thandi speaks of feeling isolated and being unrooted as a light-skinned black woman, a feeling of never truly belonging anywhere. This is followed immediately by an image and a single phrase, emphasizing the entirety of a blank white page.
Clemmons brings insight to Thandi through other such conventions: There are analytics, images, and graphs with which the narrator tries to better understand her grief. Thandi maps time and emotion and focuses on an asymptote and its connection to sublime feelings:
This powerlessness makes thinking deaf or blind to natural beauty… it might be said that in the sublime feeling, thinking becomes impatient, despairing, disinterested in attaining the ends of freedom by means of nature.